Monday, 22 June 2009

Father's Day....21 June 2009.

My kids jumped to me and hugged me the moment I reached home yesterday. They were fighting against each other to pass to me the A4 size envelope that each of them were holding while screaming to me " Happy Father's Day Ayah!".
I quickly opened the first envelope from my son after receiving big kissing all over my face from all of them. It has three pieces of colour paper. The first page is a normal big wish for a father's day and the next two pages really amazed me. He printed a poem for a father ( the words are so beautiful and touching to me...!) that he sourced from internet and followed with the next page with a photo of the familiy which taken a few years ago in Malacca. Everything was written in English and I gave him a big hug and kiss once again after looking and reading each page.

Then came my 9 years old daughter with her envelope. Also 3 pages. In the second page she wrote to me with her handwriting. She said thank you from many things that I've done for her and she love me forever. The second page shows my photo that she picked from one of the albums.The last page is her hand drawing picture of her with each of the family member. My wife told me that she took quite some time a night before to prepare the write -up and checked the grammar with her mom to make sure everything will be alright when I read it. There were few grammatical errors but that was not that important anyway. T

And the last one, my youngest daughter. She is 4 years old an she also did not want to miss the celebration as well. She wrote herself a big Father's day wish in one page of paper(surely helped by my wife)and in the middle of page, a pink love shape paper was pasted.

Not long after that Zaim and Sofiyya came back to me with their drawing wishing me again. Thank you Allah! Syukur to You because my kids know how to show their love and appreciation to me as their father. I will keep praying that they will remain as a good son and daughters us as their parent.

I was so touched..surely and nothing can describe my feeling when I hugged all of them and said thank you so much for the GREAT WISHES AND CELEBARTION to me from my own children!

Syukurlah...at least they are smart and brave enough to express they deepest appreciation to their father and I'm still alive to see and feel all that. I must thank my wife also for being with me raising them until today...
Thank you so much my lovely children..Zaim, Sofiyya and Fareesya...and all of you owe so much to your mom for what you are today.

May be I should scan their cards and publish it here and then you will know why I was so touched and happy at that moment...until now.

Friday, 19 June 2009

My Career Path...


1. Sept 2004-present : Energy Commission H.Q at Kuala Lumpur
  • Oct 2008-present: Head, Demand Side Management Unit,Department of Energy Management
  • Feb 2008-Oct 2008: Acting Head, DSM Unit
  • Sept 2004-Feb 2008 : Enforcement Officer, Legal Department
Nature of works: Regulatory for electricity supply and demand sector
  • Energy efficiency standard and labeling development
  • Implementation and enforcement of energy efficiency related legislations
  • Energy efficiency awareness and promotional programmes
  • Technical evaluation for energy efficiency projects













2. Oct 2003- Aug 2004 : Services Engineer, Johnson Controls (M) Sdn Bhd . Based at Intel's manufacturing plant at Bayan Lepas, Penang.
Nature of works: Integrated facility management services.


3. Sept 2001-Sept 2003 : Energy Engineer at Mckinnon & Clarke (M) Sdn Bhd. Based at an operational office at Penang Island.

Nature of works: Energy efficiency and energy saving consulting services
  • identifying prospective clients
  • preparing and presenting business proposals
  • energy audit, reporting and project implementation and monitoring
  • client relations and accounts

Mar 2000-Aug 2001: Facility Administrator, Johnson Controls (M) Sdn Bhd. Based at TRW Automotive plant at Bukit Beruntung, Rawang,Selangor.

Nature of works: Integrated facility management services.
  • operation and maintenance of support services equipment of the plant
  • P&L account, administration and development of staff
  • Client relations

Dec 1997-Feb 2000: Energy Consulting Engineer, ECO Energy Sdn Bhd. Based at Bandar Sri Damansara, Kuala Lumpur


Nature of works: Energy efficiency and energy saving consulting services.
  • training, seminar and courses on energy efficiency for industrial and commercial sectors
  • energy audits
  • project sales and marketing

Thursday, 18 June 2009

Bahagia ...satu perjalanan .


Mungkin sudah terlalu biasa aku dengar...mencari kebahagiaan. Banyak perkara yang kita buat atas nama untuk mencari atau menuju bahagia.
Adakah ada bahagia diakhirmya...jika ada , di mana? Jauh ke perjalanan kita tu..? sempat ke kita sampai?
Ada keadaannya seolah-olah telah jumpa bahagia..akhirnya hancur juga. Musnah setelah bahagia yang dirasai sekian lama yang selama ini rasanya sudah ditemui.

Pandangan aku agak berbeza. Aku tidak mencari kebahagiaan di hujung perjalananan. Aku tidak mimpikan kebahagiaan yang aku tidak pasti akan aku jumpa atau tidak.

Bahagia bagi aku bukanlah satu penghujung atau titik pertemuan yang aku impikan atau cari. Aku mahu bahagia di sepanjang perjalanan yang aku lalui dalamhidup aku. Bahagian bagi aku ialah satu perjalanan, bukannya satu destinasi yang perlu aku sampai pada satu masa yang entah siapa pun tidak pasti.

Aku mahu bahagia menikmati apa sahaja yang aku perolehi sepanjang perjalanan hidup aku ini. Kebahagiaan yang hanya aku dapat rasai dan hargai dengan setiap perkara yang aku lakukan. Biarlah sekecil mana pun...aku tahu dan Dia yang Maha mengetahui. Paling kurang pun, kehadiran aku dalam dunia ini membahagiakan mereka yang penuh ertinya dalam hidup aku. Mak dan Ayah, isteri dan anak-anak aku, adik-beradik aku dan sesiapa sahaja yang menyayangi dan tahu menghargai setiap apa yang aku lakukan.

Alhamdulillah...bahagia yang aku rasai selama ini dan pada masa ini dapat aku kongsi dengan mereka yang aku sayangi tanpa ragu-ragu. Kebahagiaan yang mampu aku selimutkan pada mereka datanng tanpa sebarang syarat. Aku bahagia membahagiakan insan-insan yang aku sayangi. Susah perit macam mana pun, keikhlasan aku untuk membahagiakan melampui segala-galanya.

Pernah aku bertanya pada diri sendiri..apa yang aku lakukan untuk membahagiakan diri aku sendiri? untuk kepuasan diri aku sendiri?...jawapan yang aku cukup pasti..ialah..AKU CUKUP BAHAGIA MEMBAHAGIAKAN MEREKA.


Apa lagi yang aku mahukan dalam hidup selaian daripada menjaga sebaik-baiknya apa yang aku ada sekarang ini. Hati aku rasa tenang dan tenteram pada kebanyakan masa. Cabaran atau dugaan yang Allah jadikan memang aku sedari, namun alhamdulillah...aku ada segala-galanya untuk bersama-sama aku mencari penyelesaian dan jalan yang perlu.
Tiada hidup yang boleh kita panggil sempurna tetapi aku percaya dengan cukup yakin masih terlalu banyak kebahagiaan dalam ketidaksempurnaan yang dijadikan oleh Allah untuk hamba-hamba-Nya.

Tiada siapa yang pasti sejauh mana kita akan mampu berjalan di atas bumi-Nya ini. Siapalah kita untuk menduga atau menetapkan takdir. Takdir-Nya akan datang dalam macam-macam cara. Ada yang kelihatan seolah membawa derita dan ada yang cukup menyenangkan. Pernah aku dengar bahawa Allah hanya akan menguji hamba-hamba-Nya dengan apa yang mampu untuk dihadapi oleh setiap hamba-Nya itu kerana Allah tetap adil kepada semua. Aku hanya pegang kepada hakikat itu.


Tak perlu kita menafikan takdir yang seolah-olah menyiksa kita dan tidak pada orang lain. Kita selalu memikirkan apa yang kita tidak ada berbanding banyak lagi yang Allah telah berikan kepada kita selama ini. Kita selalu lupa betapa banyak yang kita nikmati dalam hidup disebalik segala kemungkaran yang selalu kita lakukan. Aku tidak mahu merasa yang aku berhak ke atas segala-galanya tetapi aku cuma mahu redha sepenuhnya dengan setiap apa yang dijadiakn untuk aku. Jika derita atau susah, itu ujian Allah dan jika senang dan kenikmatan, itu juga ujian daripada-Nya. Bagaimana kita bersyukur dan menilai apa yang terjadi, itu yang akan dikira oleh -Nya. Paling kurang pun, kita masih diberi nafas untuk bernyawa untuk melihat dunia pada saat ini.


Hari, masa dan zaman sekali pun akan berubah...kita juga akan berubah sama ada kita sedari atau tidak. Jika kita ingin berubah untuk kebaikan demi untuk menikmati kebahagian yang kita mahu atau impikan, cara terbaik yang yang dapat aku fikirkan untuk diri aku sendiri paling kurang ialah...

1. Mulai dengan diri aku sendiri...kerana aku telah terlalu banyak kali kecewa mengharapkan orang lain berubah.

2. Mulakan perubahan aku dengan perkara-perkara kecil yang aku mampu lakukan bermula dengan diri aku. Semoga Allah memberi aku jalan dan panduan untuk aku membuat perubahan yang lebih besar.

3. Mula berubah pada saat ini, hari ini! esok masih belum pasti untuk aku dan sesiapa pun. Aku tidak mahu menyesal esok untuk apa yang tidak aku lakukan pada saat ini.

Hidup aku, amalanku aku saban hari...sekecil apa yang mampu aku lakukan...aku lakukan semampu kudrat aku di sepanjang perjalananan ini hanya untuk mencari keredhaan-Nya kerana itu sahajalah bekalan KEBAIKAN aku di sana nanti.InsyaAllah.



Petikan hadis:

Rasulullah s.a.w telah bersabda yang maksudnya:”Satu dinar yang engkau belanjakan pada jalan Allah, satu dinar yang engkau gunakan untuk memerdekakan hamba, satu dinar yang engkau sedekahkan kepada fakir miskin, satu dinar yang engkau nafkahkan untuk keluargamu, yang paling besar pahala ganjarannya ialah yang kamu nafkahkan kepada keluargamu"

Huraian:
1. Bersusah payah memberi kesenangan kepada isteri dan berkorban mencari nafkah untuk anak-anak akan diberi ganjaran pahala yang besar oleh Allah S.W.T. Bahkan dikira suatu dosa besar sekiranya seorang suami atau ketua keluarga itu enggan memberi nafkah dan bakhil terhadap isteri dan anak-anaknya sedangkan ia mampu berbuat demikian.

2. Nafkah adalah lebih daripada hanya peruntukan makanan bahkan yang dimaksudkan dengan nafkah adalah memberikan tempat tinggal, pakaian, makanan, perubatan, pendidikan dan perkara-perkara yang munasabah bagi kehidupan seseorang anggota keluarga.

3. Keluarga yang bahagia akan terbentuk sekiranya setiap ahli keluarga memainkan peranan masing-masing. Keberkatan jua akan melimpah sekiranya setiap tanggungjawab itu dilakukan dengan mengambilkira kedudukan halal dan haramnya. Tidak semata-mata ingin mengecap kesenangan dengan jalan yang mudah sehingga akhirnya membawa padah kepada keluarga dan merosakkan rumahtangga.

Wednesday, 17 June 2009

MY HOME

We bought this house which is located at Putra Nilai, Negeri Sembilan in the end of 2005 and completed in early 2007. Handed over by the developer in March 2007. Moved into the new house in June 2007 which was earlier than the plan since it was completed early as well.
One of the biggest dreams in my life has become a reality to me. Having an own house for my wife and kids is another significant milestone in my family life. At last I managed to fulfill my promise to my wife that one day I'll get a house for her and this is it now.















Monday, 15 June 2009

Cuti sekolah...

Macam biasalah...bila cuti sekolah...budak-budaklah pun sibuklah nak pergi jalan-jalan. So, Umi dan ayah pun mulalah carikan tempat nak bagi anak-anak seronok....
Started with Bukit Merah...then spent few hours and night safari kat Zoo Taiping...followed by a one night trip at Cameron Highland. The traffic was quite ok at Cameron Highland due to many people have gone back home at the end of the school holiday.
It was a quite tight journey started from early morning of 12 June and reached home at about 6.00 p.m on 14 June 2009. It was very tiring but the excitement and great times spent with the family overshadowed all that. Alhamdulillah...everyone was very happy and enjoyed the short vacation so much...looking forward for the next one!



Thursday, 28 May 2009

Feeling so low...


Feeling so low in my life in the last few days until today. Don't know how long it will last this time around and it looks like that I don't want the feeling to stop. Sometime, it might be better if I just let my feeling to take its space in me...it came uninvited and let it go by itself. I don't feel like to go against it.
I'm not the one who likes to entertain this type of negative feelings to have any sort of control in my day or any part of my life but this time I feel very much different.
Knowing this will give some impact in everything else that I do...I don't feel having the strength to fight my frustration, anger and all kind of similar feelings at this moment.
Why???? I don't have the courage to say it even to myself but deep in me...I feel it so much! It make me feel useless and all what I did have no meaning at all. Feeling myself so bad although I know that I am not too good anyway. I'm just a normal person, a man, a husband, a father, a son and a father with a normal desire to do the best in his life.
what the hell I'm writing here?!!!
Yeahhhh! My brain is in a mess now...hope?!!! better let it be like this for a while...I just want to let the natural "evil" feeling enjoying its moment now...who will pay?!!! I believe people deserve what they deserve...So do I!

Monday, 11 May 2009

"Giving Back"....

Date: 9 May 2009, Saturday
Venue: Dewan Melur, Tekam Plantation Resort, Jerantut, Pahang
Program: Kursus Pemantapan Komunikasi Korporat untuk AJK Pelaksanaan Pesta Konvokesyen ke-37, UKM
Organized by: Bahagian Pengembangan Pelajar , UKM
Slots: 9.30 a.m-11.30 a.m - Komunikasi Korporat
11.45-1.00 p.m - Teknik Pemasaran Projek





It was another enjoyable moment for me over the weekend. Actually I was quiet tired after a long journey back from Kulim Kedah. I spent the whole night on Thursday, 7 May 2009 preparing the presentaion slides for the event. I already have the materials available since the event was scheduled initially on April but postponed to 9 May 2009 at the new venue. I just need to prepare the MS Power Point Presentation.

This time around, my wife and kids were able to joined me since it was on weekend. I guess they had a great time as well the resort-type accommodation provided is completed with other facilities such as swimming pool for children.

The program was organized by the Student Development Divisioon of UKM and I was invited to give talks for two 2-hour slots. Topics given were corporate communication and project marketing. The topic sound so huge for me who is not really in that fields as my career but they just need inputs from students' perspective when they want to market their projects. This particular group is for the 37th UKM's Convocation which is an annual event. Am I the right person for that?..I believe I am due to my extensive hands on experiences in "mega" projects such as UKM's Career Day and National Workshops for Secondary School Students at UKM when I was a student and my working years selling engineering services as a consultant.

I was recommended to UKM for this event by one of my old friends who works in UKM and worked together with me when we were students.

To be honest, coming back to UKM or to meet up with people from UKM has been always interesting to me. Coming back to share my thoughts, experiences and knowledge has made my returns more meaningful to me. It so so exciting to see the students are eager to learn from what I share with them everytime I am involved in this kind of sessions.
As I always said to myself and my wife....may be this one of many ways where I can do good things to others and the same time "giving back" to an institution where I've gained so much as a person.














It is very difficult how to explain why I keep continue doing this especially when I am in a very tight schedule with my works and commitment with my family. I have never seen that as burdens to me and keep doing it has given me so much personal satisfaction and new experiences. One of the best thing can happen is I can enhance my personal skills especially in public speaking and presentation which will definitely giving positive impacts in my actual works.
Looking at their eyes listening and participating throughout my presentation will remain as another sweet memories when I shared many things with them.
I had a great time over there and I hope my audience has managed to learn and gain some good things from my presentation

I wish I can do this again and keep my desire burning to keep "giving back" to the people especially in UKM like the participants in this program. It has been my believe that I can only get more knowledge when I share my knowledge with others no matter who they are.

I wish them all the best in their project and also in their life as students.

On the other side...my family is enjoying their time at the resort. My kids were having so much fun especially at the swimming pool of the resort. I guess everyone having a good time over the weekend...see it and you'll believe it!


At least another quality time I managed to spend with them and in the same time doing what I like to do.

Some of my friends did tell me that I should start to make it more commercial since I have the capability to present my knowledge and experiences which I am good at...it means it will start to become services that I can offer at reasonable fees....yes they are right and I should consider that...may be later in the future as long as I can continue doing it ...with satisfaction that I can feel in me.